Realizing Your FearFear is always thereIt never leavesNor does it careAnd your heart heavesAt the sudden jerkThat fear createsWhile it's at workAnd your smile crumblesYour face is petrifiedWith the heavy weightsOf the sudden awarenessAs you realizeThat what you fearIs not fear itselfBut is indeed whatIs on the other sideYou know it's thereIt's a part of youAnd it also knows thatYou fear yourself
DaysYesterdayWas a long time agoDon't worry about itJust let it goTodayIs just another dayLive it upAnd don't regret itTomorrowIs a new prospectWhere you can changeOr stay the sameEverydayI think about youAnd about the peopleThat I love the most
Your Ill FateI'm not a toy to be played withOr a tool to be usedSo don't expect me to comeAnd let myself be abusedBecause I'm no longer blindThe innocence is long goneSo ignoring me only provesThat you see me as a pawnI'm not your entertainmentNor am I your casual dateAnd playing with my emotionsOnly makes it your ill fateSo don't expect me to comeRunning back and crying to youBecause even though I'm hurtI'm not something to screwMajor heartache comes your way.
Anything but RealNothing is all I'll ever beI'm worthless and brokenJust a useless dirty tokenLeft behind and forgottenYou don't really care about meAnger is all you really feelAnd I'm afraid I'll never healBecause I'm worthless and brokenEverything I say is shitNo matter how truthful I amSo please just end the anger nowSince all I am is a shamOur embraces meant nothingThe kind words were fakeWhile I give, and you takeEverything I had to offerDo you really love me?Or is all of that fake tooBecause you never look at meThe way I look when I love youHow about we just blame each other?And act like we're total strangersWe've already started, so keep goingBecause we're both heartbreaking dangersSo now as I walk awayYou don't look my way at allBut instead you look back as alwaysAnd say I'm just like the others, is allBut for the record, I looked at youAnd prayed so much to let us healYet you easily let me go awayBecause I'm anything but real
Self DoubtI feel happy with youAnd I love your smileBut the last thing I told youMade you run a mileI didn't mean to hurt youI just wanted to say my own feelingsBut now you're probably mad at meBecause of my personal dealingsNow you're ignoring meAnd you look away each time I passI try to explain to you, whyI sound like such an assPlease let me explainPlease allow me to expressWhy I said those certain thingsWhy I made you second guessSo don't leave me standing hereWhile you walk away, your ears closedBecause I feel terrible insideDecayed and decomposedOr is it that...I'm not worth listening to?I'm just something that's on the side?And did you even love me,Did you even care when I tried?Did my deep feelings scare you?Did my emotions drown you out?Please tell me what I did wrongOr else, I might die in self-doubt...